A sudden change of mind

I said to myself yesterday that choosing my dignity over chasing you would be the wisest choice I’d ever make. I made myself believe this and I was so convinced that something of value would come out of this choice. Gaining some self respect would do me some good and if you had the slightest problem with that you could go and take a long hike over a short cliff

BUTTTT….

I saw you today, saw how we were both challenged by our element. I saw the pain in your eyes and even though I was in as much pain as you were I put that aside like the brave soul I am, I mustered up all my courage and decided to walk up to you. I ended this drought of silence between us, this very drought that had kept me up the past week wondering what the hell I did wrong this time. I sobbed in the shower, spaced out in class and you were the only thing on my mind. As usual our playful conversation starts with your sharp sarcasm but I countered all you quick remarks. Before I knew it we were talking like best buddies. But beyond that tough exterior is someone I love and someone who needs to be loved. And though a very close friend of mind reminded me that I ‘had a thing for emotionally unavailable men’, my better judgment is overridden by the part of me that wants to save you, to show you that I could love you right. But you wouldn’t see that, to you I’m just a hopeless little creepy girl that is in love with you. And as this conversation came to a close, I looked into your eyes for the first time in months and I felt the feeling like the world suddenly froze around me and we were meant to be at this very place and this very time.. Together. And that maybe just maybe you were waiting for me to talk to you…

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